A forbidden love.

I know things have been hard for you. I know all the stories that seem to be circulating in school. I know despite your flambouyant act and cheerful smile, you are really hurting on the inside. You, being the strong you, the intelligent and most idiotic, you're a kind-hearted soul and you're a positive one. I have never wanted someone this bad. Just to be able to befriend you would be as good as marrying the best guy there is in the world. I watch you from afar but I guess i really observe you closely. And as the plot thickens you turn your back on all your friends. I don't even know if that is okay. I know they are your grandmother's wishes but please, have some sense.

No matter, everyday i look at you. Around those girls. Your hand carressing their face, the upturned-corner of you mouth they call smile, the dark-violet eyes that look deep into them or to anyone that you talk to. It is the true you but there is also another side of you. From your body language i know that you only have that one girl in your heart. The questions you ask her, the protectiveness, the jealousy. Yet you see it as a family love. Not the love that you have of a man for a woman. At times, its ludicrous to watch you like that. How can you be so dense??

For me, my love for you is forbidden hence i wouldn't pursue it any further. Just the side-obsession that i have will suffice. just by looking at you fair skin, soft face, that cute pointy nose, the silky golden hair that shines that you have to push away from your eyes, your height, stature, and delicate fingers as you play the piano. Ah this is enough for me. I wont be selfish.

But in my dreams, you are real. So for now, I will take my dreams with me. You are impossible to find. If you do exist, i think its impossible for us to be together. I will keep watching you from time to time. And i hope you will progress to the man that you are suppose to be.


Rene Tamaki Richard Grantaine Suou.

Live in Peace.