Love from afar.

Finals are coming up. I'm anxious and Mother chose this month to move to another house. I hate this. I can't say anything about it and being the rebellious one, i lied to her saying I'm staying over at a female friend's place to study so that I won't be disturbed by anyone or anything. I can't stand the family obligation and staring eyes from family members when i dissed them about not wanting to do what they ask me.

In truth, I'm staying with my boyfriend. Handsome of a man he is. Yet, my intentions of being here was never innocent.

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I see him everyday with his long hair swept up cause they always get in the way of his eyes. The intense stare that you gave me when i stepped into the apartment. The hard features just gazing at me as though you were scanning my very brain. But of course you would never look at me that way. You were just talking to a friend of yours. I smiled nonchalantly as though nothing bothered me although your very presence is giving me arrhythmia.

Day by day as i get out of my boyfriend's room, the first thing i see is you. Your table was placed in that way that i had to resist catching a glimpse of you everytime i come out to go to the bathroom. And at times, I see your head come up from your monitor screen to look at me and my heart would burst with speed. You make me feel like headed.

Guilt clings to me knowing that i'm here to see you more than wanting to be with him. I'm sorry baby but I can't help myself. I can only keep this love from afar......

Unless nature takes on its own course.